Tag: fear
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From Strength To Strength: On Springs In The Valley
A few mornings ago, I read an encouraging Bible verse: As they go through the Valley of Baca they make it a place of springs; the early rain also covers it with pools. Psalm 84:6; ESV Right before this verse, the people “they” refers to are ones whose strength is in God. After Verse 6, it mentions they […]
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Healing: The Journey, Not The Final Destination
Healing is a process. If there is anything bipolar has taught me, it is that healing is a process and a journey. There is no specific destination, no specific time and date that we are fully healed–not in my experience, at least. When I look back five years ago to my diagnosis, I was devastated […]
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Major Life Update! On Change & Transformation
My life is pretty different lately. I did not end up returning to law school for my second semester. It was a bit of a shock and I am still adjusting. I will not bore you with the details or decision making process, but I believe this was the best choice for me. I did end […]
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Get Up & Follow: On Grace That Moves
Have you ever been paralyzed by fear? I know I have. When I first moved back from Nashville and was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I faced crippling fear and anxiety. Afraid I would always be depressed. Anxious that I would never be able to feel a sense of normalcy again. Afraid I would always be […]
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Four Years Of Bipolar: On Hope + Expectation
I was diagnosed with bipolar four years ago. Four years!! That is four years of all sorts of mood swings, all sorts of both valley and mountaintop moments. That is four years of on-and-off depression and mostly-off manic moments (phew!). My mental health journey has certainly been that: a journey. Years and years ago, a […]
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It Takes A Village: On The Value Of Deeply-Rooted Community
I used to feel awfully alone. When I first returned to Dallas from Nashville, I felt awfully alone. Not the kind of loneliness that comes and goes with varying moods or circumstances, but the kind of isolation and desertion that leaves you feeling empty and saddened. Only a handful of my hometown and college friends […]
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When God’s Not There: On Anger & Grief
Lately, I’ve been mad at God. Even though it’s been two years since my bipolar diagnosis, I still struggle to accept it. I struggle to take advantage of the life I currently live, and look back to the past when I was free of the shackles of mental illness. Most days, I live freely and […]
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