Words By Mae

content creator / mental health advocate / friend

Dwell: On Present-Minded Living

I dwell in the past.

A lot.

I dwell on late night Czech Stop runs while I was at Baylor. I dwell on watching the sunset over the Arno River while I studied in Florence. I dwell on feeling empowered and confident while I lived in Nashville.

I have this nasty habit of living in the past and glazing over the present. I dwell on all of these wonderful, Instagram picture-perfect moments, because the present seems  dull and overrated.

Sometimes, I fear I peaked at the ripe age of 21. By 21, I lived in Italy, graduated from Baylor and moved to Nashville to start a new life.

I actually catch myself thinking, “Oh, to be 21 again.” — as if that was such a long time ago — it’s only been two years.

Past-minded living is a recipe for present-day bitterness.

When I look back and remember the good old days, I forget there are good days in these moments and even more to come. When I live in the past, I’m too busy to dwell in the present and hope in the future.

Living in the past leaves me discontent with what I have in the present and hopeless in what I might in the future.

My tattoo reads, “Andiamo!”

This means “Let’s go,” in Italian. It’s a tiny reminder on my wrist to go, not stay.

To go meet good people and do good things. To go forward and onward and upward because the past remains the past. To go and not stay stuck sifting through who I have been and what I have done.

I want to “go” more in 2018. I want to put my glory days on a shelf in the back of my mind, not at the forefront of my thoughts. I want to be content with where I am and hopeful of where I may be in the future.

I want to savor these moments, look forward to the future, make friends, do good things, laugh constantly and chase dreams.

So what are we waiting for? Andiamo! Let’s go!

5 responses to “Dwell: On Present-Minded Living”

  1. […] to accept it. I struggle to take advantage of the life I currently live, and look back to the past when I was free of the shackles of mental […]

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  2. […] moved houses and churches and community groups. I’ve returned to my roots, learned to dwell in the present and chased new […]

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  4. I too occasionally swallow the lie that the future will be less blessed than the past, particularly if my present is less thoroughly fascinating than I would prefer it to be, or if I have fallen into a pit of unhappiness. But the Word promises us that we have a spiritual right to grow from strength to strength (Ps. 84:7), faith to faith (Rom. 1:17), and glory to glory (2 Cor. 3:18). Today is covered in Ps. 118:24, and Jeremiah 29:11 is an assurance that the Father has plans to give us a hope and a future. So that kinda covers it, doesn’t it? 🙂 It’s seems that the redemption of Jesus has given us a divine right to “carpe diem”, and a supernatural prerogative to expect tomorrow to be better than today.

    As I said a couple days ago, I really appreciate your God-gift to share. And again, no need to respond if you’d rather not. Just wanted to say thanks.

    Also, love the tat!

    Blessings and joy on you, Maelyn. 🙂

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    1. Thanks again, Joey! I appreciate your encouragement and ability to relate.

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